While making screen caps from ep4, I remembered how much I loved the phone call Geon made to Se Ra. I could feel their love and Jang Huk looked beautiful (of course I had to make a shallow comment) It now breaks my heart because it reminds me that Se Ra exists lol, that Geon loved her and that her return is going to bring a lot of pain.
There was a long discussion on twitter about how Geon has “betrayed” Se Ra and he deserves to be punished by her. To me, betrayal is a very strong word and he doesn’t need more punishment that what he already got. The mess he is in, is not something he initiated. And the “mistake” of marrying Mi Young, was not ill intentioned. It was also for their baby. Not telling this to Se Ra by phone also has many explanations.
While re-watching episode 4, some things became clear to me. One point people bring up ,in defense of Geon, is that Se Ra, left Geon first. This implies that Geon doesn’t owe Se Ra anything. I disagree. Why? Because Geon did not marry Mi Young due to Se Ra. The two events are unrelated. Geon did not break up with Se Ra, therefore the point becomes a moot one.
While blaming Se Ra is not going to be my way of “defending” Geon, I do have many reasons to think he is not guilty of “betrayal”. Even if Se Ra sees it this way at first, it is not the truth, and we the audience, saw it
Geon was hurt, as was evident by his words to Mi Young on episode 2, the pain that Se Ra gave him is what allowed him to identify with Mi Young, right? But he forgave Se Ra, as he had done many times before.
Why didn’t he call Se Ra right away? He never said anything, we only saw him brooding in a locker room and we assumed he was “punishing” Se Ra or just hurt (and sorry Geon detractors, but he had a right to be mad, still, I don’t think that was the main reason he wasn’t answering the phone) . All of this was before he knew Mi Young was pregnant.
When he called her before the wedding he told her “Don’t say sorry, I am even more sorry”. It looks like his overwhelming feeling is not resentment towards Se Ra, but guilt.
Before that, when he asked Mi Young for marriage he said “I have lost, all my qualifications as a man to Se Ra” This makes it obvious that he feels he wronged Se Ra by sleeping with Mi Young. I don’t even agree he should feel guilty for doing something while drugged. The man was practically raped by those Hamoo guys (I know this is a rom com, but the fact remains) If you think about it, both Geon and Mi Young should go to therapy but anyway, let’s not dwell on that, since the characters apparently accepted this a lot better than some of us did.
Anyway, Geon feels dirty or guilty towards Se Ra before the wedding. He is not yet aware that he was drugged, therefore he blames himself and only himself. I am convinced that the moment he asked Mi Young to marry, he was giving up on Se Ra and thinking of Mi Young as his new parter with whom he would raise a child and possibly make himself love in the future. But his primary reason for marrying Mi Young is to raise their baby.
Was it a backwards decision? Well, maybe we either have to accept that this is the drama’s universe or maybe korean society is different than ours. But I am told that single mothers still carry a stigma in Korea, therefore Geon did what he had to do. Give Mi Young a status and the baby a father.
Then, he finds out he was drugged. He no longer blames himself. Now he feels “raped” wronged, his life turned upside down by complete strangers. His mistake is in blaming Mi Young, who is as much as victim as he is.
Now that he feels he is not guilty of sleeping with Mi Young, I assume he wants to explain the whole mess to Se Ra. Whether he expects her to understand or not is a different matter and we have no clue about this, but I’m sure that he is hoping to have such a difficult conversation, in person. Not only is it something almost impossible to explain but he was definitely being careful not to upset Se Ra while she was performing, since these are probably her last chances to be the prima ballerina she has fought so hard to be. Geon knows that Se Ra’s career is more important than him.
His plans with Mi Young changed, now he wants a divorce. But as he becomes convinced that she was also a victim, he’ll be once again torn.
Geon, so far, is full of guilt. He is not the typical self righteous kdrama lead. Yes, he seems paranoid and he has blamed others and at least in regards to the Hamoo guys, he had a right to feel this way. But he has also shown to have a conscience that gnaws at him. He feels more guilt than he should. To me, if a character feels guilty, the story does not need to punish him further for me to get satisfaction. His guilt is enough punishment.
Who knows how Se Ra will take the news? and whether Geon will sway in a way that annoys me or not. But so far, I have been able to understand his situation. I hope the writers keep doing a good job in that sense.
BONUS – because I love his face